I grew up amid the cries In a house with a rusted tin roof I have no story to tell just a name A quickly forgotten name From my childhood There is not much to say Except that I feel happy today To have lost most of it My past seems hazy Bad dreams I can’t relate to reality I seek the meaning of it all To overcome absurdity
I grew up among the insane In a parallel dimension Where madness doesn’t exist It took me many years to understand
I grew up with other children In playground where I played little A prison I would gladly dynamited A school where I learned disgust I grew up day after day taming fear A fear gripped to the belly Shaking the nerves like a rabid dog The fear of not being loved The fear of being lost in a maze The fear that the world collapses tomorrow The fear of being left alone forever With this stranger I see every morning in the mirror
I grew up in the tumultuous nights Which sometimes ended When two drunkards engaged in a fight I saw all kind of excesses I saw people destroy themselves Because they were happy to be alive I saw people crawling for a line of coke And never stand up again I saw men fuck it up all in one evening I saw young age too quickly Because they have seen too much
I grew up among the insane In a parallel dimension Where madness doesn’t exist It took me many years to understand
I grew up within my room Four walls without windows With a black and white tv I watched horror movies And had no serious project Apart from becoming a serial killer Or the next messiah But I wanted not so much And at night under the covers In the dark, sheltered world I imagine I was not me I wanted to be anybody Except me