What am I looking for? Where the hell is the answer? I'm so tired of being trapped inside this shell, my soul rejects my body as cancer Kindness? Spare me from it! Consciousness? Fuck it! The clouds around – sucking out all dignity Malicious winds of change predict my near rest Condemned to take the major part in all this mess Catching the sparks of hope, but none left for me, none! These awful scenes still flash inside my head and all I want Is to shake the shit off me, abandon everything I ever used to know or love No feelings left, too bright, too pale, variety has gone, And sense has gone with it, now one on one – me vs the abyss. Your guns are gay, your ropes are dirty, your razors lay a trace of blood A syringe leaves no chance, and just in case I add some white No one will see me squirming on the floor in agony White foam from mouth confirms my state Nails broken, carpet wet I’ve seen the past and I’ve seen the future So full with pain and vacuous delusions I’ve seen you all dishonored, killed and fucked!