As the autumn leaves fell in the month of october I found myself chiefin hay and everyday never sober got gin drippin down my chin and smoke in my lungs pullin hellified hos with my devilish tongue silk tailor maid i dont need your name on my back got these bitches mind addicted to that shit like it was crack I went from good to bad, bad to worse to evil Never thought I'd see myself not trusting my own people Right up under my nose In the form of niggas and hos All playing by the rules, cause that's all I ever been told An eye for an eye, do onto others as they do you Turn the other cheek, and watch how many mothafuckas do you Decieving Got you believing while they fiending Tryin to break even A Nigga Damn near stopped breathin scared for my sons like mind is already at the end trying to make a change so they dont have to go where i have been But then, the line between sin and what's right opened my heart to god and hope i get in touch right i just might take a life stop breath bring death to all of my visinity until there is just me left
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I've been searching all this time trying my best to find my way running around trying to chase this money it's taken me around the world in a day blowing smoke all out my nose getting in and out of clothes fooling around with midnight hos man that's just the way life goes...
It's hard to run Tobacco from the blunts got me winded My sanity has ended I'm now where I pretended to be a millineum away from reality as far as the eye can see there is no one but me Ruins from a past life as far back as last night burn like witchcraft giving my path plenty light I close my eyes I cannot believe what I'm seeing evil demons, posing like they human beings Invade my trip, those bitches came equipped with banana peels tryin to make a pimp nigga slip some have no lips some have no eyes and it's strange how they never stop the lies or the spies from cluttering damn near smothering always hovering above me masked face, actin like they love me always want to judge me playa that aint for you to do cause one day, higher power's got something for me and you
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I close my eyes and try to imagine I'm somewhere else other than this hell we call earth from birth to death set my mind free chemically helps me solve O-Z's of trees on to me until my spirit is numb oral inhalation hallucogenics, sedation illegal medication forces me into hibernation now my thoughts seem as vivid as a rainbow I'm visited by an angel, who come to make my pain go On the outside, it's all peaches and cream In my mind I hear screams from horrible dreams flashbacks of some shit I wish I could forget on the verge of having a fit not afraid to admit I'm lost and I don't know which way to go I don't know who I can call that can save me so I'm gonna drop to my knees and ask to be forgiven and pray for another way for me to be livin (repeat)