When I'm all alone The darkest place in my mind is my only home and I Can't feel my bones This spineless journey to failure is tearing apart my soul Did I cast the stone That caused an innocent boy to become so old? And now I'm growing cold Struck by the fear that one day I might finally lose control Overwhelmed by attachment and pain when I look back on my life Can I say I tried? Did things go awry? Or did I just open up my eyes? "Don't leave me" - those words still ringing in my ears "Stay away" - are the ones I truly fear
So how much longer can I keep myself alive When all the drugs I've tried can barely hide the fact that life is all a lie? I try to cover my eyes, when faced with what lies ahead But I'll dwell on the pain, and welcome the shame, that comes while I lie in bed
I find myself in a room with my friends. Looking around and everyone's talking and smiling But I don't want to be here. I don't want to be anywhere Cause I'm too wrapped up in my shattered self-worth Desperately trying to hide how flawed I am I want to change it all. I can't accept reality
But maybe one day I'll learn to let go
This passing year Has been the most distressing of my life Those dreaded sleepless nights That left me drained and apprehensive I'll never forget But this world is ever-changing And I feel it in my chest The time has come to put the past behind me The lessons that I've learned Will be the foundation For something greater, where I will be Free