A never ending nightmare but I cannot decide If it’s a byproduct of memories or pride Communicate the symptoms, or should I even try Maybe it’s all just my state of mind This never ending moment just never seems to die But this is when I realize That it’s so typical of the way that I feel
Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away Just give me something real that I can hold onto So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to
I never want to
Just a simple gesture meant to signify The will I’ve fought so hard to keep alive Another complication but I won’t question why My best attempts cannot control my own demise Why do I strive to make you, as dead as I feel
Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away Just give me something real that I can hold onto So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to
I never meant to hurt you despite all your surprise But I locked you up with everything I tried but couldn’t find You never meant to scar me from what I could surmise But my superficial wounds are scabbed With the words that you’ve advised And in this mass confusion you’ve rendered me unkind And only sacrificial crucifixion can Justify the crime
Now life looks better through your eyes
Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away Just give me something real that I can hold onto So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to