if I make a lot of tinsel then people will want to if I am hardened no fear of further abandonment if I am famous then maybe i'll feel good in this skin if I am cultured my words will somehow garner respect i would throw a party still it would not come i would bike run swim and still it would not come i'd go travelling and stil l it would not come I would starve myself and stil l it would not come if I'm masculine I will be taken more seriously if I take a break it would make me irresponsible if i'm elusive I will surely be sought after often if I need assistance then I must be incapable i'd be filthy rich and still it would not come I would seduce them and still it would not come I would drink vodka and still it would not come i'd have an orgasm still it wouldn't come if I accumulate knowledge i'll be inpenetrable if I am aloof no one will know when they strike a nerve if I keep my mouth shut the boat will not have to be rocked if I am vulnerable I will be trampled upon i would go shopping and still it would not come i'd leave the country and still it would not come i would scream and rebel still it would not come i would stuff my face and still it would not come i'd be productive and stil l it would not come i'd be celebrated sti ll it would not come i'd be the hero and still it would not come i'd renunciate and stil l it would not come