Sometimes I try to do things And it just doesn't work out the way I want it to You know when I get real frustrated, and I try hard to do it And I take my time, and it just doesn't work out the way I want it to It's like I concentrate on it really hard And it just doesn't work out And everything I do and everything I try It just doesn't turns out, it's like, I need time to figure these things out But there's always someone there going "Hey Amanda, you know, we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately, you know? Maybe you should maybe get away, and like, maybe you should talk about it you'll feel a lot better" And I go "No it's okay, you know, I'll figure it out, just leave me alone, I'll figure it out, you know? I'm just working on myself" They go "Well you know, if you want to talk about it, I'll be here, you know, and you'll probably feel a lot better if you talk about it. So why don't you talk about it?" And I go "NO I don't want to, I'm okay! I'll figure it out myself!" But they just keep bugging me They just keep bugging me and it builds up inside
So you're gonna be institutionalized You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes You won't have any say They'll brainwash you until you see their way
I'm not crazy! Institutionalized You're the one that's crazy! Institutionalized You're driving me crazy! Institutionalized
They stuck me in an institution Said it was the only solution To give me the needed professional help To protect from the enemy myself
So I was sitting in my room, and I was just like, staring at the walls thinking about everything But then again I was thinking about nothing, and then my mom came in And I didn't even know she was there She called my name and I didn't hear her Then she started screaming, "Amanda! Amanda!" And I go, "What? What? What's the matter?" She goes, "What's the matter with you?" I go, "There's nothing wrong, mom" She goes, "Don't tell me that, you're on drugs!" I go, "No mom, I'm not on drugs, I'm okay, I'm just thinking, you know? Why don't you get me a Pepsi?" She goes, "NO! You're on drugs!" I go, "Mom, I'm okay, I'm just thinking" And she goes, "NO! You're not thinking you're on drugs! Normal people don't act that way!" I go, "Mom, just get me a Pepsi, please? All I want's a Pepsi" And she wouldn't give it to me, all I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi And she wouldn't give it to me, just a Pepsi!
They give you a white shirt with long sleeves Tied around your back, you're treated like thieves Drug you up because they're lazy It's too much work to help a crazy
I'm not crazy! Institutionalized You're the one that's crazy! Institutionalized You're driving me crazy! Institutionalized
They stuck me in an institution Said it was the only solution To give me the needed professional help To protect from the enemy myself
So I'm sitting in my room, and my mom and my stepdad, they came in They pulled up a chair and they sat down And they go, "Amanda, we need to talk to you" And I go, "Okay, what's...what's the matter?" And they go "Well, we've been noticing lately you've been having a lot of problems, and you've been going off for no reason, and we're afraid you're gonna hurt somebody, and we're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself, so we decided that it would be in your best interest, if we put you somewhere where you could get the help that you need" And I go "Wait! What are you talking about? WE decided?! MY best interest?! How do YOU know what MY best interest is? How can YOU say what MY best interest is? What are you trying to say, I'M crazy?! When I went to YOUR schools, I went to YOUR churches, I went to YOUR institutional learning facilities! So how can you say I'm crazy?!
They say they're gonna fix my brain Alleviate my suffering and my pain But by the time they fix my head Mentally I'll be dead
I'm not crazy! Institutionalized You're the one that's crazy! Institutionalized You're driving me crazy! Institutionalized
They stuck me in an institution Said it was the only solution To give me the needed professional help To protect from the enemy myself
It doesn't matter, I'll probably get hit by a car anyway