In my mind In a future five years from now I’m a hundred and twenty pounds And I never get hungover Because I Will be the picture of discipline Never minding what state I’m in And I will be someone I admire And it’s funny how I imagined That I would be that person now But it does not seem to have happened Maybe I’ve just forgotten how To see That I’m not exactly the person that I thought I’d be.
And in my mind In the far-away here-and-now I’ve become in-control somehow And I never lose my wallet Because I Will be the picture of discipline Never fucking up anything And I’ll be a good defensive driver
And it’s funny how I imagined That I would be that person now But it does not seem to have happened Maybe I’ve just forgotten how To see That I’ll never be the person that I thought I’d be.
And in my mind When I’m old I am beautiful, Planting tulips and vegetables Which I will mindfully watch over
Not like me now I’m so busy with everything That I don’t look at anything But I’m sure I’ll look when I am older
And it’s funny how I imagined That I could be that person now but that’s not what I want But that’s what I wanted That I’d be giving up somehow How strange to see That I don’t want to be the person that I want to be.
And in my mind I imagine so many things Things that aren’t really happening And when they put me in the ground
I’ll start pounding the lid, Saying, “I haven’t finished yet, I still have a tattoo to get, It says, ‘I’m living in the moment’”.
And it’s funny how I imagined That I could win this winless fight Maybe it isn’t all that funny That I’ve been fighting all my life But maybe I have to think it’s funny If I want to live before I die And maybe it’s funniest of all To think I’ll die before I actually See That I am exactly the person that I want to be. Fuck Yes I am exactly the person that I want to be.