I lost my mom to alcohol and lonely nights. I don't want to lose myself next. Cause to be honest this drinking is taking its toll, and this cold is making it really easy to feel alone. She left me. How much longer till all of you join her? I'm sorry. All these songs about girls are probably getting really old. I'm trying to change. I sit down to write and this is the only thing that comes to my mind. I'm trying to convince my self everyday that every person that comes is a person who'll stay. But you know that's not true. Almost everyone you know will leave you. And that's fine. You're fine on your own, but what about me? You know I spend all these nights I won't forget with people who won't remember my name. And you know it hurts to know the fact that you won't know my name. You won't remember my face and you won't stop this pain. At least not today.
Ill sell my bones if it means a happy ending for me. You can take my heart if its what you need. I haven't used it in a long time. I've been doing fine. But if it's what you need you can have this old thing. My vessels they swell. My body goes cold. This is the last stop for my weathered soul. I'll try my best to help you grow tall and be a blossom before the fall. And the flower well my beautiful seed. Grow big for them all to see. My days on this earth were not a waste. It wasn't a waste. I wasn't a waste. And with my last breathe. Ill get to see. A beautiful flower. My beautiful seed.