What am I waiting for What do I hope to find Lying here inside my mind So much scattered energy Falling in between Focusing on how I hurt Introvert
I search my heart I search my soul A bust without console I search the ground I search for more I just can't find the door I can't decide I can't control I lost control I have no faith I have no goal I have nothing Nothing to explore
Paralyzed from the neck up No twinkle in my eye And I have no devotion No chills down my spine Paralyzed but in slow motion Like a zombie I keep on moving round and round Making sure I can't be found
Panic rising from inside Adrenaline set in Still I won't move an inch The world outside passes me by With the blinding speed of light Captured ghosts on retinas Fading out
I never laugh I never feel It's hard to conceal I never hurt I never heal What is fake, what's for real I don't believe I believe I would've never believed I would never believe again I don't believe this Believe me I never would've believed You'd believe me if I told you how If I told you how I feel
Paralyzed from the neck up No twinkle in my eye And I show no emotion No tears fall at goodbye Paralyzed like from some potion I'm gripped by this stunning notion A sensation so profound I cannot make a sound
Apathy spreads fast through me Like gangrene dark and cold Life and death entangled Infection growing sore We all know the outcome From that struggle in the past So what am I waiting for