The prince of the air has been stealing the air from my lungs when I'm tangled up in sheets I feel him gently compress my chest till I have no breath left, sowing seeds of anxiety and disbelief My eyes see things that move in the dark, figures I can barely see, Oh God this is terrible the way they sway and creep This is more than I can stomach, this is more than I can stand I reprimand my conscience telling myself this is not what it's like to be a man But there's nothing manly about the fear that I keep to myself, Fear of failure, fear of foolishness, fear that this life is it and there's nothing else But I'll keep to myself for now, I'll justify my passivity and say it's godly somehow While I cower and say nothing and just wait till I figure life out But the doubt crushes me like the tyrant waves of the sea And I finally see why it's not easy for everyone to believe I beg for a little more courage, a little more strength, a little more reassurance that's all I need But I'll keep to myself for now, I'll justify my passivity and say it's godly somehow The prince has been misguiding my step since before I could walk While I've been singing the praises of my Father sience before I could talk The prince attacks our flesh when we're young and weak The Ghost of my Father screams help when I can hardly speak
You hide yourself, still I'm in love, in love with you You hide yourself, you're worried now and the truth it scares you
Cause I've been the desperate man I never thought I'd be I never knew that I could fall from such a height I've made Jesus to a god pent up in a bottle on the shelf that I drink when I am feeling kind of low And I've been sleeping with these monsters under my bed, and their greedy politics are like my own Thus a monster I've become all by myself, all by myself
You hide yourself, still I'm in love, in love with you You hide yourself, you're worried now and the truth it scares you
I was born a fool and excelled at my foolishness I grew into a prideful child and called my poor self-control humbleness As a youth I ignored Lady Wisdom calling from the roof tops I walked with the brazen wanderer like a dear about to get shot I lost my innocence before I lost my virginity I lost my desire to live before I learned how to battle shame I want to grow old and have my children's kids know my name And I want kids of my own who can honestly love me God makes us lovely And we're guaranteed nothing in life but death from life's first cry to our final breath When you lay me down and bury me deep, I promise I'm not dead, I'm only asleep Cause death has say over me I'm not a creature of misled philosophies, I'm the product of careful calculation and honest belief When the earth sucks the marrow out and swallows my bones You'll know my heart is full and whole I'm home, by God, I'm home