I am not a ghost, but I wish that I could be. I am not a demon, but there are demons inside of me. I no longer wish to be such an invalid. I'm a goner, too silently dysthymic. Sailing, sailing forever... My heart's disconnected. My mind's not together. Wearing pain on my wrists, Uncovering answers when I clench my fists. An insomniac's day dream Is just a nickname for reality, So let me sleep a couple of days, Because I'm getting quite tired of this place. Closing back doors to the thought that i am not alone. No matter where i am I'm never home. So love me forever but I am a cancer, Or hate me forever, but I'm still here Letting myself down. I feel so Goddamn lonesome. My nerves are shot. I could go outside and make friends, but I'd rather not. O God, can anyone trust anyone any more? Are You there only so I can ask, \"What am I here for?\" Be who You will. Kill who You kill. I can't stay mad at you, So do what you do. Why aren't you here when I most need you?