It begins with a dark glowing ember Something black burning its way out of me Searing the flesh Pain is the only thing I feel Scars all I see
Oh no the fires burning my insides again What can I do to silence my desire tonight? Flames consuming reason Leaving only ashes left You will catch me regretting my decision
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear I can't just close my eyes
[Chorus] I know that It's killing me And it's poisoning the best in me What I see I don't want to believe So let me tell you more About the lies I lead
This is how I've chosen to douse the flames Broken teeth replace blackout memories Wreckage from the past haunts me, shakes me to the bone I know its over but I can't go home tonight
But after this I feel as empty as before Feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more Masochistic nihilistic urging backward thought My life's a mess and I cant find a way to fix it
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear I can't just close my eyes
[Chorus]
Calling calling out The darkest reaches of my soul are riddled with self doubt Crawling crawling out My will to fight will more than suffice when others would lay down.