Standing on the corner as a young child scared and timid Worried about this lifestyle I was living Always kept my mouth closed looking down when I walked So eye contact was never reason for beef to spark Always did what I was supposed to, no questions asked Never talking back but pops was just whooping my ass I paid attention to the rules, kept my nose clean Put no mind to me with no self-esteem I could give a fuck less what motherfuckers thought And didn’t say much, never had a reason to talk No brand name clothes, no shoes, no nothing No fronting for me cause I was never good at bluffing Kept my eyes to the books, let my mind suspend Cause education back then was the way to make bread And I’ll admit I was pushed over at times So if I could I’d rewind these hands of time
Need some sleep, you can’t go home like this I’m in too deep and the wheels keep spinning ‘round Everyone says you’re getting down too low Everyone says you just gotta let it go
I’m looking at myself reflecting off the glass Infected with depression, thinking of ways to pass Wondering where I went wrong, why am I so weak? But inside I feel so strong My head is spinning feeling over-abused My conscience is telling me I can no longer lose I been beaten down so long it’s time to flip it Three hundred and sixty degrees, my pride was missing I dug deep in my soul to get out of this deep hole And never again will I get trampled by these people I found a way to express myself to this pain That’s when I picked up the mic and found myself in this game
Need some sleep, you can’t go home like this I’m in too deep and the wheels keep spinning ‘round Everyone says you’re getting down too low Everyone says you just gotta let it go
All the back and forth bullshit, walking and pacing Left me panicking, breathless, and my heart racing It’s landed me no where in the shadow of my patience I told you I’m not playing, I’m touching all bases No more time that’s wasted, I’m just speaking as a rebel The concrete’s pulled out and it was time for me to settle A schizophrenic outlook trying to keep my soul level With the heart of an angel but the mind of the Devil All these emotions building deep inside of my body Ready to explode on the next faggot who tries me Expression has let me pour my guts in the booth Letting loose of all aggression built up from my youth All the fear and shyness gradually faded and tapered My timidness and depression evaporated to vapours I’m ready to prove I can carry this load On my shoulders, they told me let it go
Need some sleep, you can’t go home like this I’m in too deep and the wheels keep spinning ‘round Everyone says you’re getting down too low Everyone says you just gotta let it go