I'll act as if i forget and i teach myself to subdue regret I'll deny the faces of the strangers i meet even those who mirror, eyes wide in disbelief
I'll numb the pain i feel and expertly suppress and conceal I'll ignore the darkness to herald the dawn and assume permanence: another conclusion foregone...
distractions surround me procrastinations tearing me from what matters most until i realize it's far too late and through countless days so terrified to feel afraid
to know that you'd been left alone reveals to me who has been betrayed
if i try to remember your voice and unlearn the result of an imperfect choice if i affirm the embrace of the love i've denied even if it absorbs the dread in my mind
if i find calm and appeal to understand accept and reveal if i absorb the light and no longer pretend could i accept that our last goodbye was the end?
distractions surround me insincere prostrations tearing me from what matters most until i realize it's far too late but sometimes having dreamt of what's slipped by i wake up in flames and in that quiet moment before i remember the lie it's as if the past could be regained
what if i promised to catch your tears while you wept kiss your face as you slept in my arms licked you wounds made you whole promised i'd never leave you alone? let no one take you let nothing break you cherish your every move absorb myself into you would that be enough to bring you back to me
so i could pull you close and just feel you...breathe
my love for you is a secret love it knows no depth