My darkest hour, was pitch black rain clouds in the sky, could only see when the lightning strikes withered flowers, hang with their heads down the weight splashes inside and keeps falling no smiles, beauty hidden for protection until trampled by shuffling feat until a new season arrives and brings joy in times of desperation, seeking to be noticed and all I want is to be trimmed of these thorns to seem more inviting to the poor unfortunate reflection of my selfish existence can it be? It was all so simplistic sipping on my sorrow while it’s washing it away trying to add color to these Shades of Grey and trying to make sense out of all this confusion embrace my reality and unmask illusions, holograms I advance on a quest with many questions distracted for a second but I know that I destined counting my blessing, renewed everyday and I know I’d never grow without these Shades of Grey What could drive a man off a cliff, lost in thoughts analyze life to find what’s real and what’s not forgotten faces, flashing through my conscience a conquest for freedom, constant forward motion leaving Egypt, past erased from attachment to start from scratch with the bricks that established my true identity, secret to most deeper then known, I’m keeping it close, to my heart written on stone tablets, alone in my magic advice projected, correcting bad habits laughing as I drowned in mystical tears mind consumed by thoughts that my physical fears I can’t, listen with ears, cause words will deceive as I stand up against darker versions of me looking over my shoulder, waiting for false moves dancing around land-mines and get lost in the grove what happens?, when all the light slowly fades away and you try to see God inside a Shades of Grey he’s ever-present, through our mistakes flaws and folly he could have left me falling, but instead he called me and I answered, silent and unsure what to say just thanking him for life even with the Shades of Grey
This life is unpredictable, no limits or restrictions it’s filled with opportunities and filled with addictions so much joy, yet so much affliction pain and oppression, shame and conviction so much we see yet, so much we’re missing so much to change and so much we’re fixing faith and forgiveness, chaos destruction poverty, paychecks, starving children and corporate lunches love, peace, war, hate and hunger fall, winter, spring, summer, sunshine and thunder I’m going under, now I’m rising how much time is left? There’s no rewinding sometimes even the light can seem blinding I wash my thoughts in blood to keep my mind clean I don’t have everything I want I’ve always had everything I needed everything hasn’t always went how I planned it but I wouldn’t change who I am even if you offered me a mansion just existing is enough, just living I’ll do my best to make the right decisions until the day heaven takes me away I’m gonna make the most of life even with the Shades of Grey