dreams of days gone by life which path to take flash backs hallucinations world has changed back into society see the light of day tolerance perceived as challenge hostile environment no excuse for failure you're victimized punishment for guilt blandly accepting fate humilation threshold of mixed emotions deliberately supressed released from isolation uncertainty arises adapt to my surroundings horrified of what I see population dominated aversive stimulation inability to control disrupting effect reopening the wounds abandoned and deprived disease potential