Was I always this way? Feeling half-mast trying to remember I must forget the feelings that last First thing when I wake up that repeats on my mind like old photographs Begins with everyone I love but only ends with myself Because I pulled them in close before I let them all go Pushed them to the side and struggled on with life Pretending when I see them that everything's fine but I'm not okay
I'm sick of these lies I'm so tired Believe me I've tried but I'm give up on living How long till it's my time?
Where's your life heading?
I know you don't mean it condescending I want to reply my life's descending Instead of pausing and pretending then defending my intentions Masked by small talk to change the direction And it will end with a smile and no detection just faked friendly affection
I'm so sorry I let you down Apologies won't change who I am