I find it imperative I say something you'll cherish in fear there's no other chance past here. I ran away to escape a routine now it seems I'll never make it back. No matter where I rest my head for the night, you're resting in my mind. When no one else would listen your attention was consistent. I just want to hold onto the best thing to fucking happen to me. Maybe this is more than you asked for, Maybe this is more than I can handle. I can't remember the last time that I held on so tightly. Maybe look a little closer. You'll see the change I want you to see in me. Maybe wait a little longer. You'll see the person you're wanting me to be. Just wait for me, I can be who you want me to be . Please wait for me. Just promise me if I fall back asleep, you'll be there when my eyes open. To be clear on what I'm saying, I just hate to keep you waiting, but nothing is changing for now. For the first time in quite some time, I'm holding myself accountable. I just want to be reliable. I've let you become a part of who I am. But if you can't wait for me just know I understand.