I’m not hung up on you anymore, but here’s why I hung up
behind every great love story lies a great suicide you can't give yourself completely and keep the man inside
all the sentences I climbed halfway saw the heights of what I wanted to say and crawled from word to word trying to get back down
the unending realization that it's never gonna end I spend half the day exhaling and the other half holding my breath
Cause living underwater was never my strength In the depths you reside, the sun never sinks So let’s float to the bottom for one final drink There’s time for one more tonight
it’s time to forget while the forgetting’s good I’ll burn all the promises I carved out of your woulds
you said won't you come into arm's reach abandon your clothes and modes of speech an infant reborn you shall be helpless and afraid
I’m waving goodbye every time you go to the store I hope you break your hand the next time you slam the door
Because I burned my fingers every night When your own shaking hands wouldn’t give you a light And I said “Jesus Christ, my parents were right I never should’ve smoked you out”
I’d hate to amputate this artificial limb But staring at you, my glass eyes are growing dim
I can’t even blame you for looking so smug I have to admit you’re a hell of a drug So pack up the boxes, roll me up with the rug I’m not moving out, I’m just moving
(Kissed) I kissed you, yes, but never on the mouth (masochist) you held the north while I conquered the south
but I don't want a territorial breach so at the edge of the bed we'll meet and I want you to fuck me in your sleep it's the only way I'll know that you love me (cause there's always gotta be a new angle)
Guns are loaded with silver bullets tonight But it’s useless, you kept me waiting until it was light
But you can’t go out the way you came in In the arms of someone unaware of your sins Because I’ve been recording this whole fucking thing Now you can never use the same chord changes again
(The first time was too fast The second time was just sad)
If you’re wondering why I’m still willing to take the fall If I’m not getting fucked over, I’m not getting fucked at all
But I never asked for immunity That’s the difference between you and me All I wanted was someone who was just like me And I hate myself for that
It’s getting hard to talk about the past When you’ve copyrighted the present, no questions asked
You can do whatever you want with my name But my body’s never been public domain So if you’re looking for somebody to blame Blame Walt Disney Studios
I remember, I was walking around outside, talking to you on the phone We were both avoiding the parties we attended alone
And I looked up at the drunken moon It was round and it was grey and it looked like the moon And I said “at least we’ve both got the moon” And you said “I’m inside”
so I’ll try loving again and you’ll try living alone and we’ll meet at the end of this lifetime and compare notes
(if bitterness is all that I have left I’ll be better at being bitter than anybody else)
[what Joe’s Baby said:]
I hate your receptionist She looks at me like I’m retarded When I’m filling out your forms
I see your form behind the frosted glass But she says that you’re not there I’ll have to be content to wait
If you felt some kind of stirring Against interpretation Why write these songs at all?
Why not become didactic Tell everyone on the planet In plain English what you are
But I am the gentle cannibal I promise to eat you softly You won’t notice a thing
(Mariamme)
you’re taking advice from Lady Macbeth
(William, one shot two shots)
when it’s out of your hands, you try to forget
Mariamme, hold me tight I still wish you hadn’t listened to me I ain’t been right since the execution
(if I could transfer your desires into belongings and then snoop through your belongings, you know I’d do it in a second)
William, one shot two shots Whoever you are, just hold me tight I lost my love, my life, that -
All I know is, one of us was supposed to kill the other Isn’t that what they mean when they say ‘lovers’? But murder is dirty, and peace comes cheap So here’s my new number, tell me when you’re free
[the conclusion:]
Down by the river I shot my baby Down by the river