You’re a bad taste in my mouth I love you but you burnt me out I smoked you and stepped away at the ashes My heart bends and breaks
This isn’t who I am This isn’t who I wanted to be
I thought I lost control but, I never had it I’ve been coming to terms with myself and with you I thought I lost control but, I never had it I’m becoming more of who I hate everyday
I’ve been restless and waking I haven’t slept for days Your ghost is haunting me And I’ve been dying to get away
When I open up I shut down again I’m haunted by your ghost, bury me inside your head When my bones are weak and my nerves are thin Crack my head open and rot away with me in my own sin
Bury me inside your head
I thought that I could save you I thought that I was strong enough But, I’ve been restless and waking I haven’t slept for days Your ghost is haunting me And I’ve been dying to get away
I lay here in these sleepless nights Waging wars inside my head against demons that look just like you And I cannot defeat them, because I cannot defeat you So I lay here gasping for air choked by the mistakes I have made And I will take them to my grave, unsure if I will ever allow myself to love again And I am just a broken shell of who I used to be, and I have no one to blame But myself