still stuck in this town counting down, counting days, counting on me to forgive and forget i'm painting a smile on my lips just to move on
standing at the station, getting on the next train to nowhere every town is painted with your eyes with an eraser and a pencil, i draw this land of sorrow into a land of hope still, i leave myself colorless
after every sleepless night after every fever dream of your hair setting fire to my wooden heart all the times I wish that you were mine and I was yours entwined until the end, no matter what that meant
am i the past, or am i forgotten? disconnect, disconnect, picture perfect (you never meant to harm me) harm is everything i have left of you
eighteen years means nothing eighteen years won't haunt me letting go and moving on letting go and moving on
eighteen years didn't count with me eighteen years didn't forgive me tonight, i'm letting go. i'm moving on.
through storms, and hopelessness i'll find someone to share this sunset with we're a car crash between love and labor we are ruins and bruises but they're not our own they are the evidence that we've grown apart
eighteen years means nothing eighteen years won't haunt me letting go and moving on letting go and moving on
eighteen years didn't count with me eighteen years didn't forgive me so why should i forgive them? why should i move on?
why should i forgive them? why should i move on?
to let go is all i have left i will wither away. i will wither away.
I never had the chance to start over I never had the chance to forget, just like you I never had the chance to end my own life I never had one to begin with
”I seem to have some sort of control nowadays” i'm not even sure what that means i'm not sure I ever did
this life is out of reach for me to live again eighteen years, and I'm still looking back at every defeat
i will not forgive you i will not forget us but you already did
I gave up, I lost hope no more dusk, no more dawn at sunrise, I’ll be gone.