As Alicia carries on speaking, I lean toward Elly. “So, listen,” I whisper. “Can I borrow your credit card?” “All used up,” hisses Elly apologetically. “I’m up to my limit. Why do you think I’m living off LVs?” “But I need money!” I whisper. “I’m desperate! I need twenty quid!” I’ve spoken more loudly than I intended and Alicia stops speaking. “Perhaps you should have invested with Foreland Investments, Rebecca,” says Alicia, and another titter goes round the room. A few faces turn round to gawk at me, and I stare back at them lividly. They’re fellow journalists, for God’s sake. They should be on my side. National Union of Journalists solidarity and all that. Not that I’ve ever actually got round to joining the NUJ. But still. “What do you need twenty quid for?” says Luke Brandon, from the front of the room. “I. . my aunt,” I say defiantly. “She’s in hospital and I wanted to get her a present.” The room is silent. Then, to my disbelief, Luke Brandon reaches into his pocket, takes out a £20 note, and gives it to a guy in the front row of journalists. He hesitates, then passes it back to the row behind. And so it goes on, a twenty-quid note being passed from hand to hand, making its way to me like a fan at a gig being passed over the crowd. As I take hold of it, a round of applause goes round the room and I blush. “Thanks,” I say awkwardly. “I’ll pay you back, of course.” “My best wishes to your aunt,” says Luke Brandon. “Thanks,” I say again. Then I glance at Alicia, and feel a little dart of triumph. She looks utterly deflated.
Toward the end of the question-and-answer session, people begin slipping out to get back to their offices. This is usually when I slip out to go and buy a cappuccino and browse in a few shops. But today I don’t. Today I decide I will stick it out until the last dismal question about tax structures. Then I’ll go up to the front and thank Luke Brandon in person for his kind, if embarrassing, gesture. And then I’ll go and get my scarf. Yippee! But to my surprise, after only a few questions, Luke Brandon gets up, whispers something to Alicia, and heads for the door. “Thanks,” I mutter as he passes my chair, but I’m not sure he even hears me.