i’m trying my best and i’m doing less and less and i know i could have called her and i know i could be bolder but i’m thinking less and less and been smoking to my death but not really just a little and damn i’m feeling so belittled why do you have to be so cold and uninviting you don’t think i’m the best but don’t think i don’t detest the way you go on and on and pretend that nothing's wrong and i want a little sister i have one and i miss her