i have memories clouded by sorrow of a time in life when blood ran through my veins but these walls keep closing suffocating and now I'm trapped beneath the weight of my own loss in the company...of my misery i gasp for air, only to drown again unending waves of memories lifes only gift bestowed to me ...regret every moment marks a breaking of my heart now i'm left alone with this ghost that i've become for years i've built this monument of pain i must find a way to never feel again i made the mistake of wanting something real, and i saw it die i paid the price for thinking, it was true when it was all a lie