Here I am again making the same mistakes I made before I guess I never really learn I'm always too far gone to accept myself I just look down and slur my words
Tonight it's hard to see just what it was you saw in me I'm chasing down those memories With a taste to waste some time
But it won't take me back to a time where I loved what I had How'd I let it get so bad
I've lost too much in this struggle To gain control without a crutch You know too much and I'm sorry But I can't seem to get enough
As I stumble home I wonder if you'd still be by my side If I could take back all the blackouts and learn to apologize
Tonight I'm just not me and I know I'm not thinking clearly I'm washing down your memory with a shot to ease my mind
But I can't take it back I hope you never felt this sad How'd I let it get so bad
You had every right to walk away I won't hold that against you I wish you hadn't seen that version of me But lately it's hard not to
I'm trying hard to get through
I know it's getting really late But I just thought that you should know I still miss you every day And I can't say it sober
I've lost too much in this struggle I've lost too much But I can't seem to get enough