blood spills from my brain filling my mouth with everything I hate about me mother I've failed at every turn stuck in a rut nothing makes sense this world is a tomb and I can't get by ruination desperation I am nothing I am filth cursed cursed with life cursed cursed cursed cursed with existence a weak will and hope for myself I'll let you all down no surprise I'm not worth your time uncreate my life drag it all to the pit of nothing I have been digging my whole life not even worms will share the earth with me