fifteen years from tonight you have to make a decision the greatest love of your life is gonna call during dinner... from the home of the girl that he's living with now and the guilt he'll say is killing him he's wilted in the middle and he knows how bad he acted knows he can't have you back but the fact is he can't be happy when you're angry and you're so angry, he says you stayed so mad and he heard it on the street that you moved back in with your dad you were drinking something awful and that that makes him sad then he says it's good to hear your voice again and that it's hard to ask it, but he's calling with a question he's been working real hard, he's trying to make a new start an honest to god fresh beginning so maybe you could try to finally find it in your heart to forgive him
you've already been here before you already know where it goes you chose this, you know it's suppose to be over you've been here before you already know where it goes you chose this, you know it's suppose to be over
he hung up the phone, you listened to the dial tone and you stared at the stove until the beeping started you read some love letters some threats and some you couldn't tell apart that you keep under the bed at the apartment and then you did what he asked you to do you opened your heart up right there on a napkin on the carpet and part of it was frostbit but you've always been a smart kid could still distinguish, the blood black as pitch valves had gone stiff, veins and scar tissue four chambers just a standard issue but none had room, forgiveness is huge and you had two full of ice water one fulla salt, one packed with coal eager and ready and willing to find fault
you've already been here before you already know where it goes you chose this, you know it's suppose to be over you've been here before you already know where it goes you chose this, you know it's suppose to be over
then with your heart in your lap and your head in your hands, suddenly you had a plan wrap the mess in newspaper headed west on Hennepin, heavy with a huge favor for a kid that just turned ten a flat-chested, gap-toothed girl was the best that I've been so far and now I'm too big to forgive him I need just a moment with me, a moment when I was still little I used to sing on the roof outside my windowsill and I came hoping some ghost of me would be here still and here you are, stick figure and a busted grin still ignorant of all the trouble I'ma get us in hoping we could trade, just for tonight like I could borrow your heart and I could leave you mine it's not much for collateral, tattered and battle-scared but I can promise you solemn that I will be back for it tomorrow I only need yours this evening so I can call an old friend and I can tell him that we're finally even, that we're finally even
you chose this, you know it's suppose to be over I've been here before and I already know where it goes you chose this, you know it's suppose to be over