there's a city where I always feel heartbroken there's a river where I feel it lifted off my shoulders I don't know if it's just coincidence or if it's magic my friend called it a sinkhole and in someways I believe him and he said you could feel like it was built on sand and I stood on the shore and I felt like it was all the same again there's a highway where I feel like I'm exploding anticipating getting here or if I'm leaving where I'm going I always crack my knuckles nervously and squint into the wind that shakes whatever machine I'm traveling in and he said you could feel like it was built on sand and I slept in the grass and I felt like it was all the same again there are monstrous things in every real emotion but the monsters we create avoiding them are always more explosive I'll shed one tear some time in this next week to try and keep them coming gradually not just building in me and sometimes it feels like it was built on sand and sometimes it feels I have to start it all from scratch again and those weightless moments when I feel how young I am are the times that I get really fucking scared just don't want anymore friends to die after loosing touch not knowing I would be there if I could but I get so bad at writing letters and I always lose my phone what fucking awful excuses I'll try harder to call you but if I don't and you just hear this song know I love you I miss you the things that you make give me shivers and I feel honored to have been so close to you we will always get broken and sometimes I get scared we'll forget we deserve better than whatever is currently being shoved in our faces we will always discover that we built it on sand and it'll crumble underneath us and we'll have to start again