I am tired of this situation, this predilection Me, you and this co-dependent infection Your manufactured morality - plastic My tolerance for pain - elastic As beneath your pharmaceutical synapses I squirm
So now I invoke you, yeah, I invoke you
Why just won’t you let me Why just won’t you let me Why won’t you let me - sleep
Your tenacious grip on Heaven Is laced with cancerous intentions This consuming affliction An effect of forced contrition And I’ve been reduced to a sheep - in wolf’s clothing A creature of self-loathing Terrified, betrayed, weak
I don’t know what to believe Must go, must breathe Can’t stay, won’t deceive I don’t need you with me
This monster upon my bed I met once upon a scream My misplaced Catholicism Forcing me to relinquish this dream And I have given it, of my own distressed volition Given power to your violence, lack of silence, shame and hate And find myself too weakened to retaliate
And now, beneath my swollen cerulean eyes Something breathes unbeknownst to your bi-polar lies A burnt umber world, scarlet petal slumber A mural in which I may smile - unencumbered Yeah, kissed by a seraph Reclaiming my mantra, my dogma, my religion, my decision