gotta leave before i’m achingly honest again i keep quiet i tor- ture myself when it comes to controversy with someone i don’t care about but my dearest ones shouldn’t be fools shouldn’t have a view i can’t hold in the slightest i’m as stupid as them plus i’m angry and i’m a calculating know it all
and because you’re important to me and i’m sorry this may hurt but we have to share everything and if you don’t think so we should end whatever we used to be and if this was what i wanted it would be untopably great but it isn’t i’m horrible
now this has to be loud and it has to be fast and i have to be much more intense i decided i won’t live another life i’ll give this one a 90 percent I keep smashing my teeth against microphones and each time it clanks soon they’ll burst to dry taste on my careless tongue and bright splints and dark thoughts paint grey speeches i wail along
and i go on and if this is what i wanted it would be untopably great but it isn’t i’m horrible