I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders I am never supposed to show it, my crew ain't supposed to know it Even if it means goin' toe to toe with a Benzino it don't matter I'd never drag them in battles that I can handle unless I absolutely have to I'm supposed to set an example I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide 'em If some shit ever just pop off, I'm supposed to be beside 'em Now Ja said I tried to squash it, it was too late to stop it There's a certain line you just don't cross and he crossed it I heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost it.... It was crazy, this shit be way beyond some Jay-z and Nas shit And even though the battle was won, I feel like we lost it I spent too much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted And I'm so caught in it I almost feel I'm the one who caused it This ain't what I'm in hip-hop for, it's not why I got in it...
And I’m grindin’ til I’m tired of this They say "You ain’t grindin’ til you tired" So I’m grindin’ with my eyes wide Looking to find A way Through the day A life For the night Dear Lord, you’ve done took so many of my people but I’m just wonderin’ why You haven’t taken (my life? x3) Like what the hell am I (doing right? x3) (My Life x3)
And still I'm havin memories of high speed when the cops crash, As I laughed pushin the gas,when my glocks blast We was young and we was dumb, but we had heart In the dark will we survive through the bad parts? Many dreams is what I had And plenty wishes No hesitations in extermination of these snitches Envious these bitches they still continue to persue me A couple of movies Now the whole worlds trying to screw me Even the cops trying to sue me So what can I do, but stay true, sippin twenty-twos of brew And now the media is tryin to test me Got the press askin questions Tryin to stress me, misery is all I see That's my mind state My history with the police it shake the crime rate My main man had two strikes slipped Got arrested and flipped He screamed "Thug Life" and emptied a clip...
And I’m grindin’ til I’m tired of this They say "You ain’t grindin’ til you tired" So I’m gri