I'm going through changes I'm going through changes
(Verse 1)
Lately, I really feel like I'm rolling for delph like Philly Feel like I'm losing control of myself, I sincerely Apologize if all that I sound like is I am complaining, But life keeps on complicating And I'm debating on leaving this world this evening Even my girls can see I’m grieving, I try and hide it, but I can’t Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty when inside I'm dying I am finally realizing, I need help Can't do it myself, too weak Two weeks I've been having ups and downs, going through peaks and valleys Dilly-dallying 'round with the idea of ending this shit right here I'm hating my reflection, I walk around the house tryin' to fight mirrors I can’t stand what I look like, here, I look fat But what do I care? I could give a fuck, only thing I fear is Hailie I'm afraid if I close my eyes then I might see her, shit
(Hook)
I'm going through changes I'm going through changes
(Verse 2)
I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, napping at noon Yeah, dad's in a bad mood, he's always snapping at you Marshall what happened that you, can't stop with these pills And you've fallen off with your skills and your own fans are laughing at you You've become a problem you're too pussy to tackle Get up, be a man, stand, a real man would of had this shit handled Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust, nah... It isn't like dudey to do that, he wouldn't fuckin shoot at nobody, he'd fight first But dwelling on it only makes the night worse Now I'm popping Vics, Percs and methadone pills \"Yeah Em, tight verse, you killed it\" Fuckin' drug dealers hang around me like yes-men And they gonna do whatever I says when, I says it It's in their best interest to protect their investment And I just lost my fucking best friend, so fuck it I guess then...
(Hook)
I'm going through changes I'm going through changes
Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on going through changes
(Verse 3)
My friends can't understand this new me, that's understandable, man But think how bananas you'd be, you'd be an animal too If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo And everybody's lookin’ at you, what you want me to do? I'm starting to live like a recluse and the truth is, Fame is starting to give me an excuse to be at a all time low I sit alone in my home theater watching the same damn dvd of the first tour The last tour, he was still alive and it hurts So I fast forward, sleeping pills will make me feel alright And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night I just take a couple more, yeah, you're motherfucking right I ain't slowing down for no one, I am almost homeward bound Almost in a coma, yeah homie, come on dole 'em out \"Daddy don't you die on me, Daddy better hold your ground!\" Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice, yeah baby, hold me down
(Hook)
I'm going through changes I'm going through changes Don't know what I’m gonna do, but I just keep on going through changes
(Verse 4)
Wake up in the hospital full of tubes, plus somehow I'm pulling through Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof I'mma do it just for Proof I think I should state a few facts 'cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth Shit it just hit me that what if I would not have made it through I think about the things I would have never got to say to you I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do Hailie this one is just for you, Whitney and Elaina too I still love your mother, that will