[Verse 1] As I, fall deeper into a manic state I'm a prime candidate for the gene to recieve the drug addict trait Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate I seem to grab a take to the bottle of Nyquill then I salivate Start off with a Nyquill, like "I think I'll just have a taste" Couple of sips of that, then I gradually graduate To a harder prescription drug called Valium, like yeah that's great I go to just take one, and I end up like having eight Now I need something in my stomach 'cause I haven't ate Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak And you'd think that with all I have at stake Look at my daughters face, "Mommy, something is wrong with Dad, I think! He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me Won't shave his beard again, and he pretends he doesn't hear me And all he does is eat doritos and cheetos and he just Fell asleep in his car readin' three musketeers in the rear seat"
[Chorus] Sometime's I feel so alone, I just don't know Feels like I been down this road before So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me As soon as I go home and close the door Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do But I can't, and I won't, say I try, but I know, that's a lie, 'cause I don't And why I just don't know
[Verse 2] Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer? That's the devil in my ear, I've been sober a fuckin' year And that fucker still talks to me, he's all I can fuckin' hear Marshall cmon' we'll watch the game, it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers And maybe if I just drink half, I'll be half buzzed for half of the time Who's the mastermind behind that little line With that kinda rationale, man I got half a mind To have another half a glass of wine, sounds asinine Yeah I know, But I never had no problem with alcohol Ouch look out for the wall, aim for the couch, I'm 'bout to fall I missed the couch and down I go lookin' like a bouncing ball Shit musta knocked me out, 'cause I ain't feel the ground at all Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I? Man, Fuck am I hungover, and god damn I Got a headache, should have a vicodin? Why can't I All systems ready for takeoff, please standbye
[Chorus] Sometime's I feel so alone, I just don't know Feels like I been down this road before So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me As soon as I go home and close the door Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do But I can't, and I won't, say I try, but I know, that's a lie, 'cause I don't And why I just don't know
[Verse 3] So I take a vicodin splash, it hit's my stomach then *Ahh* Couple of weeks go by, it ain't even like I'm gettin' high Now I need it to just not to feel sick, yeah I'm gettin' by Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Proof so you use There's new rules, it's cool if it's helping you to get through It's 12 noon, ain't no harm in self inducing a snooze What else is new, fuck it, what would Elvis do in your shoes Now here I am 3 months later, full blown relapse Just get high until the kids get home from school holmes relax And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac I need these pills to be able to sleep, so I take 3 naps Just to be able to function throughout the day Let's see, that's an ambien each nap, how many valium, 3? And that will average out to about one good hours sleep Ok so now ya see, the reason how come he Has taken 4 years, to just put out an album, B See me and you, we almost had the same outcome, Heath Cause that christmas, you know the whole pneum