I thought I had it all figured out I did I thought I was tough enough to stick it out with Kim, but I wasn't tough enough to juggle two things at once I found myself planted on my knees in cuffs Which shoulda been a reason enough for me to get my stuff and just leave How come I couldn't just see this shit myself its me Nobody coulda seen this shit I felt Knowin' damn well she wasn't gonna be there when I fell to catch me The minute she was seen she just bailed I'm standin' and swingin' on like 30 people by myself I couldn't even see the millimeter when it fell Turned around saw Gary stashin' a heater in his belt Saw the bouncers rush him and beat him to the ground I just sold 2 million records I don't need to go to jail I'm not about to lose my freedom over no female I need to slow down, tryna get my feet on solid ground, so for now
Bury my face in comic books, 'cuz I don't wanna look And nothing in this world is too much I swallowed all I could If I could swallow a bottle of tylonol I would And hit it for good and say good bye to Hollywood I prolly should 'cuz these problems are piled all at once 'Cuz everything that bothers me I got all bottled up I think I'm bottoming out but I'm not about to give up I gotta get up, thank God I got a little girl Now I'm a responsible father so not alotta good I'd be to my daughter layin' in the bottom of the mud Must be in my blood 'cuz I don't know how to do it All I know is that I don't want her following in the footsteps Of my dad 'cuz I hate him so bad Worst feeling I had was growing up to be like his fuckin' ass Man if you could understand why I am the way that I am What do I say to my fans when I tell 'em
I don't wanna quit but shit, I feel like this is it For me to have this much I feel like this is it This is not a game this fame the real life is as sick Publicity my ass, consume my fuckin' dick Fuck the guns, I'm done I'll never look at gats If I scrap, I'ma scrap it like I never wooped some ass I love my fans but no one ever puts a grasp on the fact That I sacrificed everything I had I never dreamt I'd get to the level that I'm at This is wack, this is more then I ever coulda asked Everywhere I go I had a sweater, hood or mask What about math? how come I wasn't never good at that It's like the boy in a bubble who never could adapt I'm trapped If I could go back, I never woulda rapped I sold my soul to the devil, I'll never get it back I just wanna leave this game with level head intact
Imagine going from bein' no one and seein' everything blow up And all you did was grow up mceein' It's fuckin' crazy, all I wanted was to give Hailey the life I never had I've forced us to live alienated, so I'm sayin'