I am not afraid of falling asleep. I am afraid of waking up again. Your hate's placed in my head commanding me what to do. My face's pressed against my pillow and I see moments passing by. I refuse to feel. Left all alone..
I try to forget, still your fingers will not leave my arm. I was heading for a change but all I found was harm. I kept begging on my knees, regretting every " I love you". Headshaking you've turned away (from me).
So It was on me to save me from myself and you. Your thoughts hammered nails into my eyes, red tears running down on every piece of my fucking face, reflecting each and every wall I built with my own hands.
So here's to you. Here's to all of you.. And here's to you. To all of you.. Forget my name.
I watched my shadows walking, dressed up in lies. keep pretending your whole life that you're someone else. You said I'd grow with every mistake that I make. But as far as I can see, I haven't changed in any way..