I have been searching for this unholy depiction of the self An exterior sight for the meaningless faces that defy me And yet I still fail to know all the reasons for this Ongoing objection to all that I am You better know when to believe in what you are seeing For there is more than this shell
Taking this in is harder to bear since The will of my being is unknowingly scarce But I will learn through the ways of defeat This rejection, it was channeled through me
So I am left with this unguided path full of plight Where no one’s listening or see my signs of grief Because I lack respect I must accept this fate for all these rash mistakes And clear the view from here, my life in peril
Don’t negate the signs when they are overwhelming
When desolation breeds your heart begins to sink It blocks the will to see that you are out of line So many years and still not past this all Be aware of what you speak
This is the only way to reconcile my afflicted mind And yet it’s stressing me to undo the damage
If we look inside we will surely find the source Of all the insolence, still we must judge ourselves before anyone else I lacked the thought to see myself in any other way To be the enemy I’ve always sought to kill