I was a curious mind as an adolescent, Kind of noisy (stressing?), but like 9/11 tho I had some questions. Made mistakes repentant, learned some lessons After learning them the hard way, but nonetheless will manifest it.
Was a good heart or so I've been told. See I've been tested back and forth and still my spirit is whole. I don't know tho, back when I was stuck in a hole, I did some fucked up things when I was 20 years old.
Just trying to survive, see I was weak and defeated, Believing meth was the only fucking thing that I needed. For four seasons I've sat alone crying and bleeding, With no one there to try to help me, while I'm fighting diseases.
I fought addiction by my damn self, No one tried to lend a hand, not a damn care. I've came close to dying, I was damn near, Suicidal thoughts in my mind with this last beer.
Things were pretty shitty age of eighteen, Ass-beating for a birthday gift, because you hate me. All the time degrading, every time it fazed me, Maybe you should've pulled out instead of ejaculating.
From under twenty I was nothing but a scapegoat, Who felt the hate most because a job doesn't pay more. You feel like killed your life then why the fuck didn't you say so? Instead of attempting fatalities like Kano.
There's nothing I could've done, I often think, what would've I become, if you just would've run. Or would I have been a better son helping my only mom? No point in thinking what, if you have to just overcome
I know I am the man I am because of you, Even tho I'm nothing, I've been overcoming obstacles. I appreciate the things you've never taught me to do. And I apologize for everything I've costed you.