The panic took hold, it seeped in through the cracks and infected him wholly, till he finally collapsed “The pain of living, outweighs the pain of dying Take me away My fear of living, outweighs the fear of dying Let me decay.” Weltschmerz takes hold, life is rot, decay and mould. "Life is cruelty, it can never be the world I had expected to see" Throat filling with bile the existence he covets will never transpire. Weltschmerz.