I had hopes of finally breaking ground and figuring this thing out. But I watched each of my dreams fade to nothing. I put my faith in honesty and hoped things would work out for me. But I guess my intentions never even meant a thing.
I thought my heart would mend and I'd pick up all these pieces. Put myself in place again. But I can't even find these words or even stand up straight. I guess I'm just meant to be this way. I'm losing hope in everyone and everything around me.
The line work in my head says this feeling in my chest, will come and go just like the seasons but I'm still filled with emptiness. Maybe it's the pressure I put on myself or the fact that I just always seem to ruin everything good for me.
and now I know, it's clear to me.
I can't take all these bitter thoughts inside my head or the way these old bones of mine can't handle anything. I thought that things would change. As I got older, it'd get better but It always stays the same.
Despite my biggest fears and all my insecurities. I'm doing all I can to keep my head up and be the man I'm supposed to be. Cause' I've been burning every bridge, in hopes I find something in this. I guess I've come to realize how lost I am.
I can't take all these bitter thoughts inside my head or the way these old bones of mine can't handle anything. I thought that things would change. As I got older, it'd get better but It always stays the same.