Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been would you have been a little angel? or an angel of sin? tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys? or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes? paid for the murder befor they had determined the sex choosing our life over your life meant your death and you never got a chance to even open your eyes sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you fought for your life? Would you have been a little genius, in love with math? Would you have played in your school clothes and made me mad? would you have been a little rapper like your poppa the piper? would you have made me quit smoking by finding one of my lighters? I wonder about your skintone and shape of your nose and the way you would have laughed and talked fast or slow I think about it every year, so I picked up a pen Happy birthday, I love you whoever you would have been
[Chorus x 2] Happy birthday What I thought was a dream make a wish was as real as it seemed
I made a mistake
[Verse 2] I got a million excuses, as to why you died and other people got their own reasons for homocide who's to say it would have worked and who's to say it wouldn't have I was young and struggling, but old enough to be a dad the fear of being my father has never disappeared I ponder it frequently while I'm sipping on my beer my vision of a family was artificial and fake so when it came time to create I made a mistake now you got a little brother, maybe it's really you maybe you really forgave us knowing we was confused maybe, every time that he smiles it's you proudly knowing that your father is doing the right thing now I never tell a woman what to do with her body but if she don't love children then we can't party I think about it every year so I picked up a pen Happy birthday, I love you whoever you would have been
[Chorus x 2] Happy birthday What I thought was a dream make a wish was as real as it seemed
I made a mistake
[repeat x2] from the heavens to the womb to the heavens again from the ending to the ending never got to begin maybe one day we can meet face to face in a place without time and space happy birthday
[Chorus x 2] Happy birthday What I thought was a dream make a wish was as real as it seemed