where have you gone love? what have you done? you've been gone for a whole year, darling it's so clear kiddo, go slow
what'd you think the world it wouldn't change for you? what'd you think i'd go and stay the same for you?
when you left home we drew figures of stars constellations that correlate with the contours of your face we dropped into foxes holes & braced ourselves for the flood
what bleeding hearts we've become, we fall in love with anyone who can keep us warm with such a cold, limited reach what foolish hearts we've become, we thought that we would feel the sea salty breeze in the cracks & the skin of our teeth what crooked hearts hearts we've become, we kill ourselves in our sleep, our waking thoughts are not ours, just a perception we keep we callous hearts we've become, we thought that we could hold to the changing tide we rode on, the changing tone towards defeat
what'd you think the world it wouldn't change for you? what'd you think i'd go and stay the same for you?
i shared my last demands in faith to you & no one else & now that you're gone i can't describe my wait to anyone, & you came back with bags already packed, i'll never wait for you to be back again, & i hate the state i'm in but even more i hate the state you're headed towards
& i love you when i'm with you, but i'm not home i feel the weight of the world when you say, "i'm your worst mistake."