i think back to the heart attack, when our world seemed so brand new. i wasted time with a crooked spine when i really should have spent my time with you. now all i want is nothing, because all i want is what i can’t have. all i want is nothing, if i can’t have just one more single second of your undivided attention. all i want is you. all i have now are memories of how you felt lying next to me. all we are is a memory. i used to have a best friend, now just one more enemy. and all i want is nothing, because all i want is what i can’t have. all i want is nothing, if i can’t have just one more second of a time when i was yours and you were mine. and all i want is everything we never had before but i still want more. all i want is you, to want me.
2 .WEIGHTED.
if we wait, it may be too late. we’ll make everybody cry, we wouldn’t even have to try. but if we stay, we may overstay our allotted time and it just wouldn’t feel right. but I only speak the truth. and I’ll always bleed for you. so let’s laugh, let’s learn to laugh at ourselves again. and let’s love, let’s hate what our love makes us do. if i try, i may have to try my entire life and that just doesn’t sit right. but if i fall flat on my face, then may my bones break under my own weight. but I only want the truth, and that’s the one thing you can’t do. sometimes though the world goes round, somethings just don’t change. sometimes it leaves me feeling old. if we wait, it may be too late. we’ll make everybody cry, we wouldn’t even have to try. i understand why you couldn’t stand another day standing in your own way. so let’s let’s laugh, let’s learn to laugh at ourselves again. and let’s love, i love what my hate makes me do
3 .BLOOD INFECTIONS.
i wanna try. i wanna live all night and burn out bright. i want you to know what i can’t show the outside, it’s why i hide. but your friends say i’m no good for you. what do they know? please don’t listen to a goddamn thing they say. if tonight’s our night baby, just don’t hurt me. i’ll give you my heart. if tonight’s our night baby, just don’t hate me for taking your light. i need a love. i want enough to keep my thirst satisfied. i wanna take your hand, make you understand my side and our kind. but i know it’s hard for you to let go of the world that you knew. please just close your eyes, we’re better off this way. tonight’s our night baby, so don’t hate me, trust in me. i wanna show you my world. tonight’s our night baby, so don’t hurt me. i’m so scared of what’s to come. in the dark no one hides but me. in the dark no one hides. in the dark no one gets away. we own the night. every night’s our night baby so stay with me, be with me, until the end of this world. We owned the night.
4 .SHE’S THE PRETTIEST GIRL AT THE PARTY, AND SHE CAN PROVE IT WITH A SOLID RIGHT HOOK.
i got my bags all packed and i’m ready to go. i’m standing outside of your figurative door. and i’m ready for the flight or to fall of a cliff, but if it’s alright with you i’d rather not miss out on us. cause your face is all i need to stay sane. i’ve spent my life getting in my own way. so i could use something good, i really need this to work out. of course the way things have been going it might be smarter to just cash out. but you’re on my mind, and the things that you say hurt me most of the time. but i’m sinking fast so it’s alright. i’ve tied my stomach in knots and I’m ready to know. i’ll put it on the line if you’d just give it a go. cause i wanna be the only one to hold you so close and so tight. and if it’s cool with you, i’d really love to spend the night. you said you never wanna be saved, well, that’s ok because i really wouldn’t know how. just know that the best that i’ll ever be is whatever you make me and wherever you are…you’re on my mind, and the things that you say hurt me most of the time. but i’m on your side, cause i know i’m not easy to deal with sometimes. but i’m sinking fast, so it’s alright. all we wanted was what we were, and what we were was young and naive. i found my place in this world, it’s in your wake. you’re on my mind, and the things that you say hurt me most of the time. but i’m on your side, because i know i’m not easy to deal with sometimes. but once in a while, i wish you would tell me if you even care. because i’m sinking fast, and i need you…i need you to know that i’m alright.
5 .STITCHES.
i want what i want. i need what i need. i want what i need. i need what i want. but i’m not what you wanted. let’s go…hell-bent on slipping away. i felt you slowly turn away. my thoughts go black it breaks my heart. i ignore your taps on windows still. i’ve become attached to where i fell. it’s true, there’s room for you. although we’ve still got miles to go, i’ve forgotten the places i used to know. this face gives smiles unjustified. i once was lost but i swear i’m fine. until the ground holds me in it’s arms i’m true, and i’ll wait for you. isn’t it obvious I’m a wreck, i set these fires just for you. isn’t it obvious i’ve calmed down, i saved my breakdowns just for you. i’m hell-bent on slipping away. i felt you slowly turn away. i’ve seen rock bottom, and it was love at very first sight. i’ve been asleep what seems like days. these dreams i love are just a phase. this life i loathe is in my way. i felt you slowly slip away. those cemetery eyes, these 7 deadly sins, these 40 days of night, have severed all our ties. i am the seventh son. i have my father’s eyes. i am a loaded gun. i am the setting sun.
6 .JOYRIDING.
i’m not sure what they said, but if it’s true i’ll bet it’s just one more thing i’ll regret. i hate my weaknesses, they made me who i am. “yea, it’s cool i’ll be ok.”, as i felt your pain wash over me. i dry your eyes and hide my shakes, cause i hate the look that’s on your face. these things inside my head, they never make much sense, so i wouldn’t hold my breath. i hope i die before they save my wretched soul. don’t hang up because i don’t have anyone left here. don’t give up, don’t hang on to anything i’ve said. i hate my weaknesses, they made me who i am. it makes no difference, i’m insignificant. this is not the end for us.
7 .STAGE 4 FEAR OF TRYING.
if i face my fears, would my skies be all but clear? probably not. then again i’ve always held my doubts so close to my heart that these frames have trapped all my better days. there they stay frozen and unscathed. though i’ve traveled far, i’ve been back to the start. and i found some scars in places i have never shown to anyone. i don’t know why it took so long to get back home. “if you could hear the dreams i’ve had my dear…” yea i know you’ve heard that line before. but if i had the chance to scream all the things i’ve underlined…you’d find i’m a thief, but my taste is so refined. i traveled far, i reached for the stars. but those stars don’t reach back, they’re better left alone, everyone will tell you. i never felt more alone than when i fell. so i don’t know why it took so long to get back home. i’ve traveled all these miles just to get back home.
8 .TRAGICIAN.
(i spend most of my days, and most of my nights chasing tomorrow.) i hate the things i do and all the shit i put you through. it’s tragic, i’m static. i am the world’s worst, i am my own worst enemy, and i hate me…most days, i can’t believe i’m still here. most day’s, i’m surprised. you want a new lie/line/life, i wanna do what’s right by you, but I can’t seem to get my shit together, not ever, no matter, how hard i try. i never seem to get it right. i’m sick of having you depend on me because i’ll let you down like i always do. i am the world’s worst, i am my own worst…it’s crazy you stuck with me. most day’s, i can’t believe you’re still here. most days, i heard you cry. and through all the times we’ve had, i never saw what you saw in me. through all the times we’ve tried, i could never be what you needed of me but i wish, i were. i still remember how i made you feel, once upon a time.
9 .NEVERENDERS.
everybody’s got something to say about your life and choice you made. they see the world through tired eyes, and we refuse to live in black and white. but i’m not on anyone’s side. feel free to count me out. i don’t believe in anything. i’m so sick of everything. everybody’s got something to say, and then they wonder why you run away. they’re trying hard to steal your innocence, and fill your head with their ignorance. the truth is i’m just fucking existing. the truth is i’m just trying to survive. the truth is i got a problem listening. the truth is i’m getting by. everybody’s got a fucking scheme, to steal our hearts right from off our sleeves.