was it white like heaven or dark like space? was it bright like god or ace black spades?
i was sitting i was sitting at the table and suddenly i could see it and it was just like the movie and i couldn't move cuz i could see the cracks in everything in every little thing
and it was like the time that we were in your car i was sick i was on drugs you were smoking pot and we were driving
we were driving we were driving and suddenly i could see it i could see it i could feel it and... i saw the world break open i could see all of it
i could see for miles and miles in every direction every direction looking up looking out and i saw thirty seconds turn into 10,000 years and it was horrible
i saw the man outside walking his dog mowing his lawn and the kids out in the yard and i knew right then that she was gonna have another baby let it grow up in front of the tv eat macaroni and cheese
and the dog will bark in the yard on a chain and the kid will huff gasoline and rape a girl while she's passed out on the sofa years and years and years later
and i know that i could never stop it even if i tried
even if i wanted to even if i wanted to
and i really, really, really wanted to.
and is it white like heaven or dark like space is it bright like god or ace black spades