every time we speak i go away feeling so bad about myself i just want help i want to be confident enough to not regret ever saying a word to you i just want to be next to you but i dont feel safe enough to share anything with anyone and i lose myself listening to my own advice but i wanna feel safe, i wanna be happy, i wanna tell you everything and most of all, i want to not regret it
i translate every single word that you say because i want to know if you think of things the same way and i would learn the language but im too hard on myself to let any hope control me so even though i just want to stay inside and feel bad about how much i cry i get out of bed just to look into your eyes
so its ok if you ignore me i would too im just a creepy guy that sits and stares at you