When I start to get depressed I look up words in the dictionary So confusing All the words are so confusing When I start to get stressed I put myself inside a box So amusing, My life is so amusing When I start to miss you I watch old videos of good times So intruding, I always feel so intruding When I start to lose it, I write of happier conversations So alluding, I make it seem so alluding Don't give give me an option Cause I'll go I'm not your fucking joker I'm not your toy to beat up I'm nothing but myself And that's all that's being asked of me.