you said take the violin that you hang on your wall stick it under your bed before it crumbles and falls just dont open your eyes before counting to ten i can hardly remember, just the smell of your hands as they danced on my body, running over my pores with the force of steering wheel crushing my bones i said you smell like the devil but you feel like the lord and when i think of perfection you know i’m thinking of your voice when you tell me you dont call him your baby because that was the name that you rightfully gave me and its foolish to share with someone else and my heart goes bum bum bum bum bum
but you admit that you’re lonely, you’re as cold as a statue pleading ‘fuck me’ on the marble that was used to create you i cant stand that you’re talking when you shouldn’t be living i didn’t dodge all your bullets i just denied that they hit me so when my body is bleeding i wont admit that this hurts because admitting isn’t fixing so then what is it worth so to say you’re unhappy is like saying you’re sorry its nothing that i care to hear
so now the tears in your jeans are the holes in your armor you’re the thoughts that i feared, you’re the mountain i’ve conquered if i told you i loved you would you reach out and touch me you taste like the ocean and your body’s disgusting the only reason you breathe is to sleep through the night the only reason you speak is to tell me i’m fine the only reason you breathe is to sleep through the night the only reason you speak is to state that you’re mine and my heart goes bum bum bum bum bum