I OPEN MY EYES, PUT DOWN MY LEGS GO TO GET MYSELF A COUPLE OF FUCKING EGGS SMOKE A CIGARETTE, PUT ON MY BOOTS AND SHIRT I'M READY! NICE AND NEAT, HARSH AND HOLLOW IDIOT
I'M DYING WHEN I'M SMILING, DYING WHEN I PEE, DYING WHEN I'M TALKING AND WHEN I'M WATCHING TV, DYING WHEN I'M WORKING AND ALSO WHEN I'M DONE, I'M COMPLETELY ADEQUATE - NOT HAVING ANY FUN
I'VE LIVED THIS WAY FORTY SOMETHING YEARS NO PET, NO GIRLFRIEND, NO PAIN, NO FEARS I'M OUT OF ANY THING THAT REALLY MATTERS! ANY FUCKING THING!
I'M DYING WHEN I'M THINKING, WHEN I DRINK AND DANCE DYING WHEN I FUCK MY OLD NEIGHBOR ONCE A MONTH DYING WHEN I'M SLEEPING, WHEN I START TO PLAY NO ONE CAN STOP ME FROM THIS FUCKING LIVING LIFE MY WAY
I CONTROL AND MANAGE EVERYTHING I KNOW WHAT TOMORROW WILL BRING I’M COOL, I'M TOP, I'M ALMOST GOD- OR MAY BE STILL AN IDIOT?
SOMETHING DEEP INSIDE TELLS ME I'D BETTER REALLY DIE….