This time I'm not blind I see it coming The storm that once claimed My heart My ship My home I feel it snarl in the air that whips around me It wants to take my life, But I won't let it go
Without a fight this time I'm not afraid to rand my ground And though I'm set on waves The thunder roars a wondrous sound I'm not afraid to die I'm tired of living mortally When everything goes black We'll all get there eventually
I hear you roar And you'll hear me back I'm not afraid I'll make it home I just have to hope
I will scream and though my voice will shake It will be strong enough to make this storm break When all I ever wanted was a home I won't be drowning in the ocean alone
So give me the best you've got I'm ready I'll face what's become my hollow pain Filled full with the last six years of aching It's washing over my broken heart like rain
This is where I face every memory That brought me down A storm I made with lies And bitterness to kill myself But now I'm changing Nothing left to do but face the cold
I hear you roar And you'll hear me back I'm not afraid I'll make it home I just have to hope
I will scream and though my voice will shake It will be strong enough to make this storm break When all I ever wanted was a home I won't be drowning in the ocean alone
I think it's taking me I an't feel anything Everything's going cold I think I've fallen in
I can't take it, I can't pretend I'm enough I can't brave it, The waves will swallow me up I won't make it, I can't pretend I'm enough I won't make it, The waves will swallow me up
I think it's taking me I can't feel anything And everything's going cold I can't tell if I fell in
I'm granted clarity for a moment When bright lightening becomes the compass Home is my bearing But home is a comfort I may not deserve That's why the storms of my life appear It's a constant downpour of every lie I told Every missing hole in my heart I refuse to fill Because I'm scared I'm scared to live I'm scared to fail I'm scared to face the realization That no matter what I'll never be strong enough I've never been brave
I've never been brave
But maybe I can change Maybe I can prove myself wrong But I'll never know Until I try
I don't want to die alone in the sea But I know now The only way to get home Is to face this head on
When all I ever wanted was a home I won't be drowning in the violet, ivory sea alone