I'm not scared to die anymore, a simple statement that I shouldn't have to say at this age, but it's a true statement as death reduces time in a secluded state. Although I don't wish to invest my ideas in hopelessness, I feel as if they've been wasted, as if they're turning the handle on a locked door that needs a key, but that key does not exist, why do I feel this hopeless? I shouldn't feel this way at this young age, I have a whole life to rot in my grave.
I shouldn't feel this way at this young age, I've spent my whole life turning in my grave. Staying bitter about all of my failures, I won't fail this time.
I always said I'd never let myself get like this, it's breaking me to the core. I've always felt as if I've been put second best to the ones who I despise. I can't keep this hole in my chest I always feel the guilt for never being there For myself when I needed me the most I've lost all love, my life is monochrome.
I've lost all love, my life is monochrome, and when I find myself I will find my home.
I've found sadness in this state, and what if a life of no love awaits? I'm not afraid to say that i can't go on, I can't go on feeling this way. I hate my life and all around me is bleak. Am I less of a man if I admit I'm weak? Because I feel sick, I'm tired and bored of my routine and all my fucking flaws.
I always said I'd never let myself get like this, it's breaking me to the core. I've always felt as if I've been put second best to the ones who I despise. I can't keep this hole in my chest I always feel the guilt for never being there, For myself when I needed me the most I've lost all love, and my life is monochrome.
I've lost all love, my life is monochrome, i've lost all love, my life is monochrome I've lost all love, I've lost all love, I've lost all love My life is monochrome.
When I find myself, I will find my home When I find myself, I will find my home